Obligations!

I felt obligated to write on my blog.
That is so wrong!
I would now only write when I felt like writing.

There will be no daily update anymore!
Only important things will be shared here.

Yesterday night was my first Skype call with family.
I know that the person I LOVE the most now is coping with life obstacles.
I still can't sleep although I know all my LOVE ones is safe.

May Allah provide me with all the answer to my questions.
Allah is Great!

Damn Tired!

I stop taking the medicine prescribed by the doctor.
It does make me want to sleep more.
I can't do that! People around need me to stay awake.
Once they give me the correct diagnoses then I will follow all the rules.

I felt damn tired after stop taking the medicine.
It was like 3 days ago. I hope things will turn out right.
I cooked 15packs of Maggi Sedap for breakfast for the 9 of us.
We have it with chilled Nescafe Mild!

I've done my laundry and a few face-lifts for the house.
After all gone back I was so lonely and realized something new.
Loneliness adds beauty to life.
It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better

My Son's Birthday!

He is 13th today!
I don't have anything to give him, so I gave him RM10 to buy anything for the day.
I promise myself to buy him something during Chinese New Year holidays.

I prepare a simple cake. It's was just for him.
I cooked few dishes and invites his close friends.
We have a simple yet a blast party.

Sometimes simplicity is the ultimate sophistication!
May Allah grant his wishes!

Alhamdullilah!

Changes!

I will be extra early to classes while in university years.
I remember a very revealing story I've read at a lecturer room.
All the sudden with so much negativity I felt like reading it again.

I want this story to be a reminder for me during hard and challenging time!
I hope this will not happen to me!

***Death Bed***

When I was young, I lived freely and had nothing to do.
I wanted to change the whole world.

When I am adult, I had a little thing to do.
I wanted to change my country.

Later on, I had a family and there were may things to be responsible.
I wanted to change my family.

Now, I'm sleeping on the bed of death.
I realized I should change myself.

If I change myself, my family will change.
If my family changes, other families will change too.
If all the families changes, the country will also change.
If all the countries changes, my world will change.
If only I realized this earlier!

It's not too late for me.
I thank Allah for that!
Alhamdullilah!

Anyway!

This is a poem that I'm longing to for more than a decade now.
I read this every morning before I went to Bilik Kuliah in UiTM Jengka.
I would like to remind myself with this on a daily basis.
This is to cast away all the negative vibes.

***Anyway ***

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've got anyway.

Sadness!

I am so down! I am sad!

I want to be optimistic! I want to be positive!

Don't force me to be somebody I'm not!

I bought $10 Skype Credit. This is for a phone call to the person I care the most in Sabah.
The line seems to be bad and I failed to get any updates.

I hope Allah will protect and give the strenght that we need.
Allah is Merciful!!

Nothing Much!

It's Monday. I am so sad with myself as I fail to finish things that I really want to finish.
I hope in this few days I will be able to finish all the overdue tasks.

I cook extra today so if my Keningau housemate pass by I can give them something for dinner.
Actually it is for one of them. He is celebrating his Birthdaty.
Happy Besday to Cg Zaki!!

Later of the day, a bad news struck me. The person I care the most in Sabah is in a big problem.
If he is sad I am sad.
May Allah protect him!

Almighty Allah!

Plan!

There was too much of things to be done today.
I have a lot of things in my mind.

I failed to plan and that was the key to failing.
I replied to Birthday wishes on Facebook.
Thank you for all the wishes!

Yesterday present from a colleague of mine was a surprise.
The best present was my first boat ride.
I'm loving it!

Happy Besday!

I thank Allah for all the things that I had to overcome and experienced for the past 29 years of my life.

I had become a better person and I really hope and wish the remaining time that I have will be utilized the best way ever.

I thank Allah for surrounded me with al te people that I ever meet.

I had forgiven all for any mistakes and wrong doings. I hope all of you can do the same things.

Please do not erase me form your history and the daily prayer.

I hope I can be a better servants, man, son, brother, uncle and teacher.

I can only hope for the best but Allah will decide all.

Happy Birthday Eddy Imran!

This is your 30th Birthday!

Be positive, optimistic and inspiring!

I Have A Son!

Early in the morning we had a meeting for confirming the contingent that will represent school for MSS Zone 4.

All went well and I had put aside my anger and differences with someone in power because I'm doing all this for my beloved student.

I have a son today and he is not a newborn baby but a 13th years old boy. We will annouced it on this coming Monday assembly. This is a mentoring program for all Standard 6 students at S.K Sasandukon.

His name is Suhaili Anggang.

Alhamdullilah!

Second Day!

Controversies surrounded the second day.
It does affect me emotionally.
I isolated myself during the prize presentation.

The events that held on today were the 100m, 200m, 4x100m, 4x200m.
Then we also organized 4x200m Open and 400m Special Invitation.

All are winners and sportsmanship is more important than a gold medal.
I learn that on this day and hope my students also learn this.

I really hope in the future there will be a clearer rules and regulations.
I’m doing this for the sake of my students.
I hope we will do well during MSS Zon 4 at S.K Tinanduk.

Allah give me the strength that I need!

First Day!

The rain seems to stop since yesterday. Allah blesses us with sun today.
I’m so thankful because Kejohanan Trek dan Padang 2010 can be held.

The event for today was the final for High Jump, Long Jump, Shot Put and 80m Hurdles.
The semi-final is for 100m, 200m. The event is for both boys and girls.

To all the participants and official thank you for making the first day a successful one.

The best thing was all of us have our breakfast and lunch together today.
We celebrated Sir Jauali Sumpo 30th birthday today.
Happy Birthday to you!

Tomorrow will still be sunny.
Insyaallah!

Sunny Days!

I read somewhere before about meetings.
It says that people who like to conduct meetings is actually people that hate working.
I’m really OK with having meetings if it is a productive one.

I do believe that if we fail to plan that we are actually planning to fail.
We will have a meeting to discuss about the upcoming Kejohanan Trek dan Balapan 2010.
The weather seems not on our side. We have to look on other alternatives.

May Allah provide us with 2 sunny day!

Busy Day!

I settle few things today! With the help of colleagues and students.
We upgrade one of the rooms as Bilik Bimbingan Kaunseling.
This really takes a lot of my time today.

Then we sew the flag for Kejohanan Trek dan Padang 2010.
Wrapping prizes for the Open Category and Special Invitation.
After all is done I was happy with the things that I manage to settle today.

Time does fly when you are happy and busy !

Excuses!

I wake up early to call few of the customer service line.

The waiting time was reasonable. I was happy with the service.

Although one of them sounded really new. She did go extra mile for me.

When I put down the phone at least 4 things is confirm.

Then I received a call from someone that I respect and admire because of the way he worked.

Unfortunately the phone call was just an excuse from him.

I need to phone and text message few people to get things done in respect to the excuse that he gave. It was not my intention to make fun of him but then it sounded funny. Funny enough that makes me want to pee in my pants.

I hope the rain will stop for a while and the sun will shine.
I hope the road condition will be better than Friday.
I hope all of us will have a safe journey back to school.

Allah please protect us!

Rain!

Despite the non-stop pouring of rain, I wash my clothes and was up early to run errand.

The checklist that I had come-up yesterday night was very helpful.

Although it is raining I manage to settle all that I need to do.

Determination will overcome any obstacle!

Something New?

The journey out from the school was a challenging one.
I really was startled by the condition of the road.

It was something new for me.
Although I had been here for more than a year but this was the worse condition ever.

Alhamdullilah! We made it to Keningau but to much disappointment, the doctor who promises to take care of me is on leave.

The staff at the counter scolds me for being late and advice me that if I was early there are other doctors that can attend to me. I meet another doctor. This is the 4th doctor. She put me on new medication and advice for me to come during Chinese New Year holiday for intensive check-up.

Allah is great and HE will give the answer to my problem!

Insyaallah.

Appointment

Tomorrow I have an appointment at Hospital Keningau.
I hope I can’t make it on time.

I have yet made my decision who to follow.
I hope the journey out will be a safe one.
The rain is pouring down for more than 30 hours now.

Few more things to be settle.
I hope I can settle all by Sunday.

Gift For Year 6

I'm teaching English Year 6 again for this year. I would like to see it as a favor for my colleagues.
It is also a personal challenge for me. I'm not that good in English.

I guess the experience and exposure from working in the private sector helps a lot.
My only hope is for the best. This is for all my students and especially Year 6 student.
I’m starting this year with a present for all of them.

It is just a cheap digital watch and stationary for daily usage. The exercise book is substitute with a big pink log book.

I hope they like it. I hope they take care of it.

This is just a small gift from the bottom of my heart.

Bless From All!

I am so happy today. No word can describe this feeling!
I finished cooking dinner around 3pm.
I really want to put my mind on the task for this evening.

What more can I say?I am so flattered with all the helps.
Hundreds of thanks villagers!
Thousands of thanks to my students!
Millions of thanks to my colleagues!

The unexpected was the special appearance.
My sweetheart! Miss Britney Benedict.
She walk all the way and giving us morale support.

Thank you again for all the help.
Can we finish the tracks by tomorrow?

Alhamdullilah!

Out of the blue they announced it's my duty week.
I need to conduct assembly and be in-charge the whole week.
Thanks to UiTM Debate Club and AmBank Toastmaster Club exposure.

We awarded appointment letter to all the school prefect.
I hope they will do our school proud.

Alhamdullilah the song "Pergi" snatched the grand prize yesterday.
Congrats to Dato' Siti Nurhaliza for the grand opening performance.

I Go!

Jovita is helping me to send the report.
Thank you my dear! Now it's really up to them.

I've settled most of the things that I need to do.
I will have to go out again next week.
I've an appointment at Hospital Keningau.
The doctor personally wanted to look after me.

Tonight is Anugerah Juara Lagu 24.
I'm voting for "Pergi" by Aizat.
I prefer the English lyrics but hope this song will do her proud.

Insyallah!

Crying Day!

The results turn out to be bad. I take it as an eye opener from Allah.

The first thing I did was visit Hospital Keningau.
I cried the whole way to the bus stop.
People look at me and I just can't help it.

Then I went to Klinik Maria and I cried even worse.
The doctor and nurses can laugh at me.
They just can’t understand the facts that the only passion that I have is being ripped from me.

They ask me to choose either to come back on Monday or forgo it.
I can’t come on Monday. I will not have any transportation to go back.
I will be stranded for a week in Keningau.
How about my student? How about my colleagues?

Then they agree for a friend of mine to take the report on my behalf.
After all the crying then people will start to understand.

I will cry more often then.
Furthermore they will declare me as fit but under strict medication.
At least it's not as unfit,

Alhamdullilah!

My Hope!

Anxiety attack the whole night! I can’t sleep at all. I hope the result will be good.

I’m out to Keningau. There are a lot of things to be settled.

I hope I can settle all by Sunday. Thank you to Sir Jauali and Madam Levita!
This is for the free transportation until Pekan Nabawan. I owe both of you one.

I reached Keningau and do some sundry shopping then off to order medals for the coming Sports Day.

Then back to our rental house in Taman Muhibbah after dinner at KFCC. No one at home.

I sleep early and start fasting for tomorrow.

Al Fatihah!

May Allah Bless You!

It started with all the PETRONAS Advertisement during the festive seasons.
You’ll watch this advertisement and can’t stop smiling because it does give you at least hope and a glimpse of what life should be.

Then I catch Rabun on TV3. After a while I watched Sepet, Gubra, Mukhsin, Talentime and lastly Muallaf.

What she capable of doing is touching your heart with all this movies and advertisement.

May you rest in peace and I promise to be extra good so we can at least meet in Heaven!
Insyaallah!!!

Don't Do It Again!

Teaching is and will always be my passion in life. I was so furious when I found this out on Facebook few days ago. There were videos uploaded before on YouTube. That is another story to tell.

How could you call yourself an educator if you post or release this to the public? Don’t you know that this is actually putting yourself down and people will use this as a reflection of your skill and ability as an educator?

My prayer for people like this is for Allah to bless them with love, compassionate and mercy.

Let us work together to teach our children how to survive life here and thereafter.

Amin!

Thank You !

I just ended a Skype call with my dear friends Cg Aimyusffy and Cg Zaki .
Both of them are colleagues from a different school.

I just want to thank Allah for all the bless that HE gave us.
I had never imagine that we will have all of this facility.

Thank you for the Internet Connection.
Thank you for the Wi-Fi.
Thank you for Skype!

Thank you!!!

First Day!

Almost a year ago I meet these wonderful 8 girls.
They are my Standard 6 student.

I am so close to them and we do share all stories.
This is UPSR Class of 2009.

Today they will be facing a new environment.
I have high hope for all of them and my prayer will always be with them.
I want to see them excel in PMR and SPM. I want them to be successful in life.

First day in secondary school!
Work Hard! Think Smart! Good Luck!

Thank you for all the nice memories that we have.
All of you will always been on my mind.

Happy Birthday!

I never address you as Kak Long or Kakak.
I always call you by name.
The way Mak and Abah call you.

You requested for it sometimes back.
Sorry I did not fulfill that!

When you deliver your first son.
I start to call you IBU.
I hope you like it.
I consider and believe myself lucky because I have 2 mum.

Today is your 31st birthday.
I hope you are happy today.
I pray for it this morning.

I'm sorry I can't be there for you.
I'm sorry I can't call you.
I'm sorry for being selfish.

I hope in the near future, we can celebrate together.
May Allah grant this wish of mine.
Thank you for all the sacrifices that you went through.

Thank you for giving me the chance to excel in life.
You are great and do love you from the bottom of my heart.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY SUZANNA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK! HAPPY BIRTHDAY IBU!

Cyber Happy!

The initial post should be 1377 words.
I learn something today. Alhamdullilah!
Don't be angry at things that you can't control.

You plan a thing and it might not work but work around it.
I woke up late and want to cancel all my plans.
Again I thank Allah I did not do that.

I finish all the things I intended to do earlier.
Just by accepting that I’m powerless.
I might be nicer to myself in the future.

Extra Happy when Datin Orked Ahmad accepted me as one of her friends on FB.
The last Cyber Happy?
It was when Allahyarhamah YASMIN AHMAD replies my comment on one of her blog post.
A very BUSY and POPULAR person like her can make up some times for ORDINARY people like me.

Cyber Happy
Now it’s only 717 words

Secret Recipes!

It's just me.
Alone on the first day of 2010.

It could be worse.
I could lost the ability to put thoughts on here.
What are more important - Thoughts or Feelings?

I want to start writing about feelings.
It should be easier than thoughts.
I think so!

I will be brave and take chances.
I have nothing to lose, have I?
People can say anything about me and my decision.
It will always be about me and my feelings.

For my sake.
I want this year to be a good year.
I will work hard.
Plus my prayer to ALLAH.
Lastly my parents blessing.

Secret Recipe for a ultimate success?