Obligations!

I felt obligated to write on my blog.
That is so wrong!
I would now only write when I felt like writing.

There will be no daily update anymore!
Only important things will be shared here.

Yesterday night was my first Skype call with family.
I know that the person I LOVE the most now is coping with life obstacles.
I still can't sleep although I know all my LOVE ones is safe.

May Allah provide me with all the answer to my questions.
Allah is Great!

Damn Tired!

I stop taking the medicine prescribed by the doctor.
It does make me want to sleep more.
I can't do that! People around need me to stay awake.
Once they give me the correct diagnoses then I will follow all the rules.

I felt damn tired after stop taking the medicine.
It was like 3 days ago. I hope things will turn out right.
I cooked 15packs of Maggi Sedap for breakfast for the 9 of us.
We have it with chilled Nescafe Mild!

I've done my laundry and a few face-lifts for the house.
After all gone back I was so lonely and realized something new.
Loneliness adds beauty to life.
It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better

My Son's Birthday!

He is 13th today!
I don't have anything to give him, so I gave him RM10 to buy anything for the day.
I promise myself to buy him something during Chinese New Year holidays.

I prepare a simple cake. It's was just for him.
I cooked few dishes and invites his close friends.
We have a simple yet a blast party.

Sometimes simplicity is the ultimate sophistication!
May Allah grant his wishes!

Alhamdullilah!

Changes!

I will be extra early to classes while in university years.
I remember a very revealing story I've read at a lecturer room.
All the sudden with so much negativity I felt like reading it again.

I want this story to be a reminder for me during hard and challenging time!
I hope this will not happen to me!

***Death Bed***

When I was young, I lived freely and had nothing to do.
I wanted to change the whole world.

When I am adult, I had a little thing to do.
I wanted to change my country.

Later on, I had a family and there were may things to be responsible.
I wanted to change my family.

Now, I'm sleeping on the bed of death.
I realized I should change myself.

If I change myself, my family will change.
If my family changes, other families will change too.
If all the families changes, the country will also change.
If all the countries changes, my world will change.
If only I realized this earlier!

It's not too late for me.
I thank Allah for that!
Alhamdullilah!

Anyway!

This is a poem that I'm longing to for more than a decade now.
I read this every morning before I went to Bilik Kuliah in UiTM Jengka.
I would like to remind myself with this on a daily basis.
This is to cast away all the negative vibes.

***Anyway ***

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've got anyway.

Sadness!

I am so down! I am sad!

I want to be optimistic! I want to be positive!

Don't force me to be somebody I'm not!

I bought $10 Skype Credit. This is for a phone call to the person I care the most in Sabah.
The line seems to be bad and I failed to get any updates.

I hope Allah will protect and give the strenght that we need.
Allah is Merciful!!

Nothing Much!

It's Monday. I am so sad with myself as I fail to finish things that I really want to finish.
I hope in this few days I will be able to finish all the overdue tasks.

I cook extra today so if my Keningau housemate pass by I can give them something for dinner.
Actually it is for one of them. He is celebrating his Birthdaty.
Happy Besday to Cg Zaki!!

Later of the day, a bad news struck me. The person I care the most in Sabah is in a big problem.
If he is sad I am sad.
May Allah protect him!

Almighty Allah!

Plan!

There was too much of things to be done today.
I have a lot of things in my mind.

I failed to plan and that was the key to failing.
I replied to Birthday wishes on Facebook.
Thank you for all the wishes!

Yesterday present from a colleague of mine was a surprise.
The best present was my first boat ride.
I'm loving it!